But I have to choose to keep the holes open for Him to do that, and that’s been the struggle. I’ve been relatively successful in keeping the big worry moments away, but as Lent wore on, I started paying less attention to the smaller worries that got in. They began to permeate my mind again, and it got to the point again where I didn’t even realize I was worrying because I was just so used to those frenzied thoughts.
But you know what? I have hope. This was never meant to be just a Lent thing; I’m kicking worry to the curb every day for the rest of my life. I’ll have to wake up and choose not to worry, eat lunch and not worry, drive home singing and dancing with my radio and not worry. And I know that I can do it. Remember our pal Martha from my last post? She was the sister consumed with worry about the daily things of life, and they consumed her to the point where she wasn’t listening to Jesus (AKA, my life). Martha and her sister Mary appear again in the Gospel, and this time Martha has been transformed. Her brother Lazarus has just died and she’s grieving his loss, but when Jesus comes, she tells Him, “if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask.” (Jn 11:21-222) When Jesus asks if she believes that He is the resurrection and the life, she answers, “Yes, Lord, I believe that you are the Christ, the Son of God, who was to come into the world.” (Jn 11:27) Martha shows that she is growing and trusting Jesus over despairing when it all seems pointless, lost, too complicated or too painful.
After the last 40 days, I promise you that I am no trust-expert, but I have tasted what it’s like to truly be free from worry, to not have it constantly invading your mind in even the tiniest of ways. It’s worth it, guys. We were never made for worry or anxiety. We were made for trust, and joy, and peace. Take courage and break up with your worries today, and if you don’t believe me that it’ll be the best thing ever, listen to God: “Cast all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7 Peace be with you, sisters! I’m praying for you all!!